Have you ever known an unloved woman? One who felt her husband didn't love her? Have you ever felt unloved, or forgotten by someone? A friend, a parent, a spouse? No one likes to feel like they are not worth another’s time. How much more this would hurt if you were in a marriage like that. I am thinking specifically of the relationship between Leah, Jacob, and Rachel. Here is one of my all time favorite scriptures. It seems a bit obscure, but you will see why I like it in a minute.
"When the Lord saw that Leah was not loved, he opened her womb, but Rachel was barren." Genesis 29:31
Now, I am not rejoicing in Rachel’s barrenness, but what I am rejoicing in is God going to bat for Leah. He gave her honor, when everyone else had dishonored her. I could cry thinking about how loving and compassionate God was to her.
"When the Lord saw... He.."
When he saw her pain HE took action. He did something tangible. Do you wait for the Lord to take action for you? There are no other words more powerful to me in the bible than when God "rises" to rescue his own. This is the same God who can create the universe with a word! That he would be passionate enough about your circumstance to rise to meet the challenge is astonishing.
"Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!" Isa 30:18
The bible says Leah was the undesirable sister. Not even her own father wanted her. He didn't respect her enough to find her a husband in an honorable way. Instead, he passed her off in secret to the first unsuspecting relative he could find. Even her sister was against her.
What do you think life was like for Leah? Her Father didn't want her, her husband didn't want her, and her sister didn't want her. She was told she was undesirable, while her sister was loved and desired by the husband they shared. But God wanted her. God honored her. Listen to how Leah named the first four of her sons. See how she obsessively tries to win her husbands attention, and then watch as she goes from misery in her circumstances to praising God for her blessings.
Reuben : "... Reuben, for she said, 'it is because the Lord has seen my misery. Surely my husband will love me now'." (Reuben means, "He has seen my misery") Gen 29:32
Simeon: "Because the Lord heard I am not loved, he gave me this one too." so she named him Simeon (Simeon means "one who hears") Gen 29:33
Levi: "Now at last my husband will become attached to me, because I have born him three sons." so he was named Levi. (Levi means attached) Gen 29:34
Judah: "This time I will praise the Lord." so she named him Judah. (Judah derived from the word praise) Gen 29:35
Notice how her situation didn't change? Leah would have six sons, an honor for any woman of her time. But her husband still didn’t love her. With the first three sons she wallowed in her misery but by the 4th son she began to praise God. She finally saw Gods hand in her circumstances, and that was her true reward. She would feel "loved" through God. Even though her circumstances didn’t change.
When we are unloved, or even just feel unloved, we have a choice. We can say, " woe is me I am so forgotten", or we can begin to praise God in our circumstances, and say “ HE is enough.” Cast your cares on him... even your desire to be loved, because He is even the provider of our love. He lavished it on Leah, the unloved woman, because from her came the tribe of Judah, and as you know from this tribe came our savior, Jesus-oh what a blessing! Rachel had the eye of her husband, but Leah had the eye of God almighty! Praise you, oh Lord that you are not like man! Praise you, oh Lord, that you have your eyes on those who are forgotten or unlovely or hated, praise you that we are loved deeply by you even when those who are supposed to love us don't. Praise you Father that you see us and you say:
"The king is enthralled by your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord." Psalm 45:11 NIV
Thank you! I needed to hear this.
ReplyDeleteThank you for this I needed to hear it today!
ReplyDeleteYou just made me weep. You are truly anointed because I don't know how you would have came up with this perception if it was not for the Lord residing in your spirit. I was going to leave my husband after 10 years of marriage, but after reading this I am staying because of your story. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteTHANK YOU !!!!!
ReplyDeletethank you this helps-i need to pray more about this feeling but reading this helps me to understand better
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. I had an especially hard day, which would typically be trying, but today was one of the hardest. I don't understand why I am married to a man who is a pastor and evangelist and is chronically selfish and unloving and more concerned with his image and goals and other relationships than his marriage. I am at the bottom of his priorities. So I will remember what you shared from Leah's story and remember that I am dearly loved by my Lord, my Shepherd, my King, and my Friend.
ReplyDeleteThank you, tears of joy confirm your words!
ReplyDeleteThe Lord has truly gave you this. This has blessed me deeply
ReplyDeleteFirst off let me express my sorrow to read about how unloved women feel in marriage. To be a husband that has a wife that would confess to feeling the same way cuts to the core of who I am.
ReplyDeleteI am a husband and a father. The two highest positions I could ever hope to be in. My wife feels unloved and she says she has for years. I feel lost because through out those years we have had such great times and she has poured out words expression how God knew what he was doing when he brought us together. She has expressed how difficult she is to be married to and that the MAN I am compliments her harshness. I am a gracious person. I am sensitive to a fault (I am an artist) Now I drop the ball in many ways but I have always been engaged and want nothing more than for this marriage to last until we are both 95 and older.
Have any of the ladies reading this ever experienced a woman that is verbally and emotionally abusive? My wife is abusive in these ways but I don't see it as something that cannot be worked on. She had HORRIBLE shit happen to her when she was a little girl and the way her parents handled it was possibly even worse. I feel that some of those past hurts intensify my wife's pain and her views of me.
She wants space and for me to move out. I am very hesitant to do this for many reasons. The main reason is that God never leaves nor forsakes us and I am afraid my kids would feel uncared for if I go.
I also love my wife. I do. I have dealt with SO much pain myself but see it as a chance to attempt to be like Christ. I have been called the worst things you can imagine and all in front of my kids at a VERY high intensity. I have cried like a baby with my kids crying in my arms asking her to stop yelling…
ANYWAYS. We are going into real couples therapy now and I want any advice you all have to offer. I want to grow. I want to own what is my to own. I want to have the stuff I need to have cut off CUT OFF. This is a rushed comment, so please forgive me if it feels like a rant.
Usually it is the other way around. In your situation though, it sounds like you are very loving. The fact that you care enough to seek out answers on your own and read a site like this says something. If what you describe is true then she sounds abusive and you sound loving. Most of the time it is reversed and the husband is the abusive one. However, it does happen in reverse sometimes. I don't know what to tell you. Keep researching and seeking the Lord. There may come a time when enough is enough, but I don't know. Talk to a lawyer about your rights before you move out. On the one hand if she really needs space then it would be nice of you to move out and give her space. However, if you think she is just playing you then she could be up to mischief and try to take your kids away from you.
DeleteUnknown, So sorry to read what you are going through. A book by Milan and Kay Yerkovich titled How We Love would be a great resource. It details how our upbringing really effects our adult relationships. I agree with the comment above about seeking legal counsel BEFORE separating - especially because of the children. Your wife doesn't have all the power and she doesn't get to call all the shots.
ReplyDeleteAnother recommendation is a radio call in show called New Life Live. They are Christian counselors and have much wisdom and resources to disperse. All the best to you. I will pray for you and your family.